Thursday, October 20, 2011

#42 Done and Dusted

Finally it is all finished! My breast reconstruction is complete after having my final tattoo session yesterday!

Pictures of my Tattoo below, look if you dare!

Ha Gotcha! 
This is my way of ending the whole process & showing my support to all Breast Cancer survivors & those who didn't make it!

Friday, October 14, 2011

#41 Love my Life

Thursday was the 1st anniversary of my surgery! I cannot believe how much better I have been feeling lately! My stomach is feeling stronger & other than that pesky bulge, I feel like I can do so much more now. I am starting yoga this week which should help further my recovery!
With one more tattoo appointment left this coming week everything will be complete & I can head forward & get on with life!
I will never forget what I've been through, my scar's won't let me, but I am so grateful that it is all over!

Life is for the living & I love my life! xoxo

Friday, September 23, 2011

#40 Nips are getting Tatts

Well, finally the day has arrived! I went off to the Plastic Surgeon for my tattoo session for my nipples.

I arrived a bit early & found the tattooist waiting & ready to go! That's a first, my bum didn't even hit the seat of the waiting room!

With top stripped off & laying on the bed, Meagan began by discussing the colour outcome I would like. Once that decision was made she began by testing with the machine if I had feeling in the area. It seemed I didn't when she tested one area on one side. But Oh Lordy Lord, did I have feeling when she really started tattooing! Especially on my left side, it was very painful. It took about a minute to do one then the same for the other side, I looked down to see my nipples covered in colour & I'm thinking this is alright the pain for that amount of time was no problem. Then Meagan tells me she will be doing that about 6 - 8 more times each side! Crap!

No really, it wasn't that bad, & all in all was completed in about 20 minutes. I was given my care instructions & had some ointment put on them before I left. The colour was a very strong pink/red which Meagan assures me will settle down to look more natural in a couple of weeks.Emptying my wallet at the door before leaving, I made my next appointment for my perfecting session where she will correct the colour & make sure all the colour is even & PERFECT I guess.

I left thinking I should learn this trade, 20 minutes work for the dollars paid, I am definitely in the wrong business!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

#39 Father's Day

I know, two blogs in one day! What the hell am I thinking?

I'm thinking about Dad!

Sitting here watching a movie about loosing someone, and tomorrow is Father's Day! Naturally I'm crying because no one else is here & I can! I know my family will be feeling the same & so will so many other's who have lost their father!

I hope you are happy where ever you are Dad & it is like you imagined it would be! God Bless, I love you & will be thinking of you tomorrow as I do everyday xoxo

Friday, September 2, 2011

#38 Not so bad

Well my birthday has been & gone! I survived, who'd of thought!
I did start the party early with a girly lunch the weekend before & had a fabulous time! It was a rowdy affair, with lovely food & lots of wine.... Hubby kept us fed all afternoon all we had to do was a double clap & he was at our beck & call. :-)
We started with cold canapes, moving onto brucetta, beef stuffed cucumbers & a hot chicken dish (Cath made) finishing the savory food with a warm duck salad, deli sh! Cheese cake to finish!
The girls where a hoot & I thank them all for sharing the day with me!

Beef cucumbers
The late stayers (it got a bit chilly)

I cannot post any more pictures as it may incriminate some! :-)

My actual birthday was a slow start. I felt a bit flat until I went to lunch with a girl friend! We had a lovely time & did a bit of window shopping also...
That night we had a visit from the Birthday fairy's & drank wine & ate cake! It was a lovely day & birthweek!

My birthday fairy's
Cake time!

I wanted to thank everyone for celebrating & for those who couldn't be with me, for the calls, cards & well wishes xoxo

Thanks to you Gavy for making it such a special day! xo

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

#37 Birthday Eve

mmm what can I say as I sit here at my computer, on the eve of my 45th Birthday reading posts on Facebook when up pops some posts from this time last year! "Can't wait for the Valentino Exhibition tomorrow"! Oh yeah that just brought it all back............. The phone call from my Doctor & all that followed! I have a terrible sinking feeling, that is making me feel sick! Yes I know things are getting better all the time, but 12 months down & things are still very raw.
Tomorrow is my birthday & I'm not really sure how I feel about it! Certainly not happy & excited as I would usually be. I had a wonderful celebration on Saturday with my girlfriends (which I will blog about at a later date) & to all of them I am so grateful that we celebrated on another day! Tomorrow will be low key as far as I'm concerned & I'm sure the first anniversary will be the hardest! I know that I should be happy & celebrating that the cancer is gone, but it has been such an emotional journey that's not yet over!

Thanks for listening xo

Saturday, July 16, 2011

#36 One year on

It isn't quiet a year, but we are nearly there! I have always loved birthdays as I mentioned in my very first post. But this year I'm feeling different! I know that the cancer has left my body & that my recovery from surgery is moving forward all the time, but the memory of my birthday last year is etched in my mind!

I had been thinking about having a big party to celebrate life, but as I get closer to the event I'm feeling immense sadness which I cannot explain. What I think I  really want to do now is spend some time with my girlfriends, have a few drinks & just laugh & gossip the afternoon away.

Most people see me & think I'm over the surgery & am looking well  but what they don't realise is that I am covered in scars! Some physical, but mostly emotional......... I know time will heal the physical scars, but I'm not sure how long it will take to heal from the emotional side of this disease. Of course life continues as it does, even after the death of someone we love. We must get on with it, but I often reflect on my life now.
Where I've been, where I am now & where I'm going.................Family & friends are the absolutely only thing that matters in my life now!

A recent pic with my gorgeous girlfriends who spent my last birthday with me! Missing a couple though!

I don't know what the future will bring, I'm hoping travel & lots of fun with family & friends, but I surely know the love of my family has kept me going & will continue to, the rest I'll have to keep you posted on.