#20 Hardening

Well today has been a roller coaster of emotions! Woke up at 0630 & headed out for my walk. I managed to ditch hubby & mum as my chaperone's & go it alone. Was going along well when I started to realise my left FLAP was feeling uncomfortable & very hard. When I got home & checked it out it was seriously rock hard all around the top area & a bit sunken. This sent me into panic mode. All I could think of was my body is rejecting this transplant & I'm going to have to have more surgery! I sat with my peppermint tea sobbing. Mum was trying to console me & hubby cancelled his day in the office in town. (God I'm a drama queen)

I had to wait until 0900 to call the surgeon's rooms, so I took a shower & got organised if I had to rush off into hospital. It seemed to take forever for 0900 to come around & I was amazed at how quickly I could shower, including washing & drying/straightening my hair.

Right on 0900 I called the rooms & was put through to one of the nurses. The gorgeous Laura who had spent 2 horrid nights with me at my worst in hospital after surgery. She is gorgeous, and suggested I came in to see her after lunch. She did reassure me that hardening does happen & it's probably fine, so I felt a little better & stopped my pathetic sobbing.

Hubby & I trekked into the city to the hospital & arrived a little early, so we stopped by "The Chicks in Pink" shop (breast cancer charity shop) & purchased a few more T-shirts & things. Retail therapy always settles me down.

When we arrived at the surgeon's rooms, we didn't have to wait long for Laura to see us. Laura had a look & said she could understand why I was worried by the look of it. But said I was very little & she was used to most of the women being rather large with large breasts, so mine are a little sunken at the top.
She had arranged for another Doctor (as mine was at a conference) to see me, which was great. He took a look & explained about the blood flow being established & that the fatty tissue from my tummy wont all establish & therefore instead of fatty tissue in places, muscle will be directly under the skin & that is why there is some sunken area above the FLAP, but the hardness was normal & will settle over time, not to worry about it! I can't tell you how relieved I was! Now I probably haven't explained it correctly, but the bottom line is hardness is normal & everything seems to be going well. I see my surgeon on Monday! :-)

Sorry about the drama people!